The walk, as a Christian, may not go all that perfectly. All of us, must have, at different times, let down God. At times badly, and some other times, deliberately. Not that, the ‘Narrow Path’ that we are called, to walk upon is, the problem. It is to with us – the fallen human beings, and our heart. The apostle Paul echoes similar thoughts when he says…
“14 For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am of the flesh, sold under sin. 15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.” – Romans 7:14-25.
This process that we see in us – our desire to live for God, and our flesh dragging us down, is something, that brings to reality, the consequences of the fall, its power to sway us, and its vice like hold upon us. Thankfully the LORD does not leave us to fend for ourselves. Rather, God works upon us, to chip and chisel us, into the shape that He wants us to be in. It is called, “the process of Sanctification.”
Let us then, not give up, nor give in. Let us hold on to the LORD, who will help us to be, what He wants us to be – “20 For our citizenship is in heaven, from which we also eagerly wait for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who will transform our lowly body that it may be conformed to His glorious body, according to the working by which He is able even to subdue all things to Himself. 1 Therefore, my beloved and longed-for brethren, my joy and crown, so stand fast in the Lord, beloved.” – Philippians 3:20-4:1
"This life therefore is not righteousness, but growth in righteousness; not health, but healing; not being, but becoming; not rest, but exercise. We are not yet what we shall be, but we are growing toward it, the process is not yet finished, but it is going on, this is not the end, but it is the road. All does not yet gleam in glory, but all is being purified."